no sleep?

okay so yea...2nite...i am sooo not gunna get any sleep...my heart hurts (not literally)...i feel like crap...and idk wut to do with myself anymore...and my mind is still racing abt thoughts of "him" and this and that and gah idk wut to do...but all i do kno is that i shall get no sleep 2nite...bc even if i did get sleep..nothing wuld help calm my mind...its jus that wen i do have nothing to do...the 1st thing that pops up in my head is him...and idk y it jus is...and i mean its sooo annoying bc i want to b able to relax and try to not b so upset and crap but its hard wen he's all i can think abt and hmph...idk i jus kno i wont b able to sleep bc at the rate i'm getting worked up...it means no sleep...and idk y..i shuldnt even b worked up still..but i am...idk i've NEVER been so worked up abt a guy...i dont think i've ever held on to a guy this long after we've broken up....something dus not seem rite...i knew from the start that i felt differently abt "him" then any of my other bfs and it was much better like it was the hardest thing to explain but it was the best feeling ever..i didnt kno wut to call it...but he tells me he feels the same way abt me...and ugh...i find that highly unlikely bc if he did feel the same way towards me...he wuld b as worked up abt me too bc honestly like how i felt/feel 4 him wuld honestly b the hardest thing to let go of...and it seems to me that this whole thing dusnt seem to bother him much..and its jus kinda bothering me...and i never get bothered period..like i jus dont...this has been a weird day...i was dumped and i'm experiencing emotions i never feel....gah...idk i've ever felt so messed up in my life