all hope is not lost

okay so i jus woke up...and yea yea yea i kno...its kinda late but i got another email from "him" ....wait u kno wut...i'm gunna give em a nickname like in sex and the city, or was that actually his name, Mr.Big...i always thought it was jus a nickname but w.e. ... but from now on he shall b Manny...lame yea but its the 1st thing that came to mind and well i gotta write fast b4 my mom figures i'm awake, so yea well in the email manny was all like yes i ment what i said when i said i'd ask you out agn bc he said he wasnt jus giving me false hope and he rele ment it...so i was like awww he rele is the best....but i had a quesiton...i didnt ask him this but jus a question that arose in my mind...okay b4...in an email from yesterday, he said he wanted to b a better bf then my ex...of which he's kinda friends with, and i mean y would he even compare himself to him, bc in my eyes manny was like 10x better then my ex, like idk wut it is but his personality made him 10x better bc my ex was pretty much dead behind the eyes, no offense to him but it was true, and manny is all life, it was pretty much a breath of fresh air...and i liked it...a lot...and he even cared enuff to let me go...but ya kno...i jus rele wish he told me how he felt about me...like explain his feelings towards me...like in words bc as u can tell, its rele easy for me to get things down on paper bc i am a natural writer...but i jus wisshhhh i culd kno how he felt abt me, like jus try to explain it 2 me...bc honestly if someone dus rele like another person...it shuldnt b hard to write how u feel bc words will jus flow out like water out of a watering can, it may take a little effort but it will come out eventually and it will only b easier every time....but yea i jus rele wish he told me...jus so i kno where i stand...bc i feel out in the blue for the moment but honestly...it wuld make my day jus to hear how he felt...it wuld pretty much make me feel much better and not so bleh all the time...but i found out this morning that he cant even read my blog bc its blocked on him computer...so he'll nvr b able to read any of this...but if one day...by random chance he will...i wuld want him to read this...among others...