well today was the 1st week anniversary of me and my bf...i was all giddy and happy today, i went out to eat with my mother 2day and had a rele good afternoon, and for like a gift or sumthn for my bf i was going to go to target and go develop sum pix form my camera for him, its jus a nice pic of us, dressed all nice, and i rele liked the pic so i'm like well this would make a great gift :) but then i decided not to bc my mother wasnt feeling well so we went ahead back home, and my mom fell asleep on the couch and i was left watching the Marilyn Monroe story by myself so i watched it for awhile and decided to check my email to c if i had received anything else from my bf, i did and to my surprise it was from my bf and i was like yayyyy an email...i read it...and tears started falling down my cheek...he had broken up with me...or at least as he put it putting our relationship on hold....it stung so bad...i had no idea what to say... i was so in shock bc i wasnt expecting it...i mean if he was gunna break up with me i would have preferred him at least breaking up with me tmrw, but not on our 1 week anniversary...i was jus so hurt...i stared at the email for awhile...after i already replied and i couldnt stop tears rolling down my cheek, it jus hurt me so bad, i felt played, bc i mean he shouldnt have brought me in this if he was plannin to break up with me only a week later....god i was jus so hurt and i dont think i have been this upset in a long time, i mean i get played a lot by guys and this wasnt the 1st time, but i mean i jus thought he was diff, and he was all like ur still by best friend and blah blah blah blah...that's what they all say...but i kno, and they kno, that, that isnt the case, before i know it, we wont b friends, we wont hang out, he wont even talk to me most likely...its jus all a downward spiral from here, and i jus got over sum serious depression issues and i like poured my heart out to him yesterday and told him all my secrets (bc i dont like secrets in relationships) and gawd he has the nerve to break up with me the next day, i swear, he could have at least waiting like til tmrw, bc if it was tmrw...i wouldnt b so hurt... or if he let me down easy...i wouldnt b in such a major heartache rite now...but wen i read the email i almost felt like dying...like idk it was jus so sudden and unexpected i almost felt like my world was over....of which i kno isnt true but heck, it still made me feel that way for like the 20 minz i sat in front of the computer crying my eyes out...so this whole break up thing..i culd put it in2 a scenario ppl culd understand...
MOVIE: PSYSCHO
SCENE: SHOWER
HOW I FEEL RELATES TO THE CHICK IN THE SHOWER:
well she was jus taking a shower for heavens sake and she thought everything wuld b fine bc she jus stole money and crap and she felt a calm being in the shower but b4 she even knew it she looked in the eyes of her killer, the one who stabbed her, and as she slowly sank to the tub level, she stared into the eyes of the man who welcomed her, nicely and sweetly, and he tried his best to impress her and she had the thought for a minute that she was safe ya know? like everything will okay, but in the end, she knows she shouldnt have ever trusted any1...especially in sum weird creepy motel that is next to a rele creepy house, where the mother is nvr seen, and ppl have gone missing
yea its a weird analogy but i mean it kinda works and it gets my mind off of my current situation..but i'll move on like i always do...find sumthing else to occupy my time...and find sum1 who will actually appreciate me...so as of this moment, i am single...not ready to mingle at the moment bc i need time for my "wounds" to heal so to speak but i mean i'm leaving for boston friday, and nothing here in GA is holding me back from having fun...i hope...
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